| Graduation |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|01:11 pm] |
Graduation was a combined mix of feelings. I was in shock because you realize, this is truly the end. I didn't want to go yet. I didn't want to say goodbye yet because I wasn't ready yet.
So we got there and we could sit with our friends. I decided to sit with my friends from the neighborhood. So then we went upstairs and practiced our walk. People had no clue what they were doing. They were merging the line and going the wrong way. I was just like, it is not that difficult. We practiced it 3 times and then they sent us out to get tickets. They told us while we sat there that we would only be getting 7 tickets, everyone was mad. They told us before we would get 8, then their response was that they were hoping less of us would graduate so that we could get 8 tickets. They realized more people graduated then expected so it was 7, but if there was left over tickets, then you could get a few. I needed 8 tickets, not 7.
So I waited in line for a good 30- 45 minutes. I told the guy I needed 8 tickets. He told me to go in another line and they gave me 7. So I waited in line for the extra tickets. I got my one ticket after 15 minutes. Then at 2 pm we found out my cousin didn't want to go. then at 3 we found out my aunt and uncle didn't wnat to go. So I had 3 extra tickets now, but it was their loss.
At 5:30 pm we left and went to the hall. I had to go upstairs and wait in this room. I had just made wallet size pics of me in my graduation suit. Then I handed them out to my close friends. I chatted with friends and took some pictures. Lindsay looked so pretty that night. I couldn't believe I was graduating. Then came the moment, we marched. The ceramony was amazing. Then came the time to go across the stage. "Robert Allan M*****N" I was so nervous, but I got a good oviation. It felt so much longer, but I walked so fast, lol. My brother has it on tape so I can remember it. They had us take a picture with the principal, plus also victor took a picture of me and stephanie took a picture of me too. then I went off stage. The ceramony ended, we had to go outside. The stairs and everything were covered with people already. So I couldn't find people and say goodbye. I did find my good friends though and said a proper goodbye. That was the end of high school, for good. |
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| Prom |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|12:47 pm] |
Prom is the one night in my life I think I will never forget. That was so worthwhile for me personally.
Me and my dad picked up the tux. It was a light blue color. I came out in the tux and a girl went aww, you look so nice. I said thank you. I looked like a little kid all dressed up, hehe. Then we went home.
I went to Jorge's house so they could take pictures of me in my suit. Then I went back home and took more pictures. Drove to Stephanie's house and flashes were everywhere.
We were one of the first one's there. We got thee at 6:01 and only a few were there. So we had to sign in. Then we knew, our senior prom had only just begun.........
So everyone was coming in. Stephanie and me took our prom photo then took photos with our friends and such. Vikcy had a very revealing dress, while Kristin's was more apporiate for the situation. Everyone looked SO nice dressed up. There were very nice suits and some not so nice one's. lol.
At 7 pm it was dinner time. The food was ok, not the greatest. I couldn't concentrate on the dinner or having a nice little convo with my buddies. The music was more clubbish and made you want to dance, not eat. I didn't even eat that much though anyways. It was nice just chatting and groovin'. We had a good time with each others company. Lots of good times with the friends. I loved to just be able to say hey to evryone I knew, man do I know ALOT of people, hehe.
8 pm, time to hit the dance floor. I was one of the first one's on. Felt kind of odd, I hadn't been on a dance floor in 4 years. I was like, what am getting my self into. Bethany goes, "Go Robert, Go Robert!" Sp I got into it. Then Stephanie joins me and the crowd goes wild. The second song hits, everyone gets off the dance floor except me and stephanie. We had everyone looking at us and we switched up moves and the crowd was in aww. They were like ooh and just shocked faces. Plus lots of picture taking of us at this point. Then everyone got back on the floor. After about an hour/hour and a half the first slow song comes on. I am kind of sweaty, but tired. So Eric and me were talking. He said he was very impressed and I was like I think I shut alot of people up tonight. I wanted to leave high school with a.)a good reputation. b.) a person with a brain c.)a friend to anybody and everybody d.) a role model. I wanted to prove to these people who hated or thought one way about me. I wanted to say, see this is what you missed. You decided to pre-judge me on looks and what not. I am more then a teachers pet, I can dance too.
The prom was just crazy. Lots of R&B, rap and spanish music. So I danced with alot of different girls, lots of diverse crowds. You go to one part and there is like a dance vibe then another a completely off the wall vibe. I was on that dance floor from 8-11. I was only off for about 10 minutes out of the whole night. Then I finished taking pictures with people. It was then time for things to come to a close. I said goodbye to everyone.
My mom was already waiting. We saw Katie's mom wasn't there yet. So she sat in the car with us and we discussed prom and such. Then her mom came like 15-20 minutes later. Then we drove home and prom was offically over. |
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| High Meadows |
[Aug. 13th, 2005|11:56 pm] |
One of the coldest days I can remember due to rain. It was a bad day to do a big school senior trip. So it was 8 am and we divided off onto buses. Stephanie didn't want to leave my side, but I wanted to talk to Josue. So we all got on one bus. Then We are riding and then Victor calls out for me. I told him before we left that I decided on Tearin' Up My heart and he was stoked. So he goes from the back "Is Robert on this bus? Is Robert Mattern on this bus?" I raised my hand and acknowledged him. What happens the whole back of the bus breaks out with Tearin' up my heart. I got so red, but I sang with them. I talked to keysha most of the way and stephanie. I also worked on my scratchboard. We got there and I had a doughnut and sat by the fire. I didn't want to go outside and it warmed us up, even though I got soda spilled on me. It was ok though, then I went out and joined a game of volleyball. We went over and played miniture golf after that. At 12:30 it was lip syncing. There was 2 competitions going on, so I went to the upper one. However all my friends were in the lower one. I was the first one up. I did a spin and then did a slow walk. I got the girls going a screaming. I think someone screamed, "take off the shirt!!!" I did everything and got a HUGE ovation. The guy came up and said u would never see that in da hood. I wanted to do some more, lol. I got a 15, which was great, I thought that was the highest we could go. Then people didn't want to follow. They either backed down or got a lower score. this guy sang, which is not lip syncing and this guy didn't lip sync, he didn't a strip. He got down to his boxers and showed his left butt cheek. Then I got 3rd which I loved. I just wanted a ribbon. So everyone came up so mad, they wanted to see me, I was sad. I wanted to get the cheering and for my friends to see it. I was sad, but still happy. Tyshawn and Lindsay gave me the thumbs up, and that meant the world to me. Everyone around me was congraulating me too. I saw Josue when I was going to get some cotton candy. He laughed at my story. Then I ate my cotton candy and then I got ate it with Nyugen, Rola, Jeannie, Nasar and Aseena. They said I should have won. Krystal came and made me sing part of the song I wrote. She was rocking to it, god I love her lol.
Me and stephanie took a pic with the filinstone's and then played mini golf, this time it was me and stephanie, victor and adam. We then went and danced. Omg when I danced with some of those girls toward the end, amazing. Then I was really getting into it, and they announced our busses were about to leave. I RAN to the backpack station and got my back pack. Then no one could find the bus. We found and boarded the same bus. I made sure I sat in front of Josue this time. I have wanted to be friends with Josue for years, and we started to become friends this year. So I wanted to talk to him on the bus, get more inside his head. He was more quiet then I expected. I continued on my scratchboard until he wanted to talk to me. So he looked at it and he really liked it. Then I showed him the essay I had submited for a scholarship that I didn't win. he thought the essay was really good. He wanted to know more about the accident me and my father were in. I explained what happened. And he told me about the accident he was in with his friends. Then I told him about my 5 staples and he looked sad about it. Then we discussed our futures, college, alot of stuff. The conversation was deep, one of the best I ever had. Again, ended so soon. We were still talking when the bus stopped. He said he would talk to me and shook my hand and all that. Unfortunely he didn't graduate, but I will be writing to him soon. It was a great day though |
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| Senior banquet |
[Aug. 13th, 2005|11:43 pm] |
Sorry if these posts are out of order, they are coming at me as that, random.
Our senior banquet was on May 20th, 2005. It was great and I had such a great time. I got there and Victor and Roman were outside. Victor pointed me in the right direction. I got in there and turned right like he told me. No one was there. I was like, oh no. So I look down and it looked like a lot of people were there. Then I heard my name being called. I went down there and all my friends were calling me. I said hey to melinda and didn't know where to sit. I looked so confused, she laughed at me beign lost,m thought it was cute. I laughed to. I saw stephanie and as I am going up to the fron part, I hear my name everyone. So as I go up to where she was sitting I just started saying hi everyone and clapping hands and stuff. Finally after all the hi's and I survived I sat down. We had a great conversation over lunch. It was me, stephanie, kaitlin, vinny, joe, tyrone, mike, rola and aseena. We were all talking though we didn't know each other. We had lots of laughs too. I got to catch with Vinny and mike who I haven't talked to in years. Then as I sat there I heard my name again. It was from Victor's table. Victor and me had been discussing the lip syncing contest for hogh meadows for about 2 weeks. I couldn't understand him til Lindsay butted in. He was saying do the call, then lindsay say, do tearin' up my heart, then tyshawn butted in with Cry me a river. My face went red and I shrugged. They then announced the winners of the Senior Superlatives. I won teacher's pet with Deschaine. The it was time to hang out. I was able to take TONS of pics. I took I think 50 pics and they were with my closest friends. I got pics with Allan, lindsay, tyshawn, josue, josh, terissa, joe, vinny, tyrone, mike, krystal, charles, deschaine, jhenal, victor, ramon, ashley, bethanne, oh so many people, lol. It ended after 2 hours, it just didn't seem like long enough. =0( |
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| The apprentice |
[Aug. 13th, 2005|11:27 pm] |
The apprentice ended on Thursday, May 19th. It had come down to Tyrell, Andy and me. I found Jara wanted a meeting on Thursday at 8 am. I told Tyrell, make it even u know? He said he was crazy and he wasn't coming.
Jara said he was going to interview Tyrell that afternoon, but I was not going to let Tyrell win this. I told Jara what Tyrell said and Jara fired him, which made me and Andy the final 2. I presented my plan for fire drills first. It had a whole map of the school spread on 2 huge sheets of posterboard. It helped present part of my plan. I wanted more security in the hall so I marked off areas which needed extra security. So instead of going in the library and doing nothing, the halls and school can be taken back by addign the teachers and quebec officers in these spots. Then I added awareness borchures. They were awesome. They had background information, facts that students didn't know and then also suggestions for the future. I then had a list of other ideas. More scientfic, but feasible. One of my ideas was cameras in the areas of fire drills.
Andy went up and his plan was awful. It was alot of what was in place already, but not enforced. He wanted ids in order to get a pass, then to be in the halls you were required to present a pass and id. Then he wanted to close the bathrooms during passing time, when teachers want you to go to the bathroom. he wanted only the 2nd floor bathroom open and the rest locked and then wanted everyone to go down to the cafteria for lunch by using the B and F staircase and having the A and C staircases blocked. he wanted a main door everyone enters through blocked. Then he wanted a school lock down at 1:45. I found out then that he had help from one of the judges. he went to one of the judges and asked when the fire alarms had occured. They asked me and I said mostly during 5th period and he said wrong, at 1:45. Maybe that cost me, who knows. H also wanted ROTC, quebec officers and teachers to guard one specific hallway. They loved his plan and couldn't find flaws in it. I was like duh, u guys made it. THey said they knew we would make it to the final 2 because the whole competition we were neck and neck. He hired Andy and got in the newspaper. I didn't care, it was because I had 4 senior events going on that week. Plus no one even knew he won. From what I have heard, he really bit the dust as the apprentice and was walked all over. the newspaper didn't recognize that, they tried to glam the experenice up.
Here is the mark of a winner: someone who hangs up 24 posters in a week, makes a commerical, word of mouth and then comes to the meeting with 5 staples in his head. One who gets a team effort and raises $60 for his cities libraries and then has an original plan and thinks outside the box. |
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| The scholarships and acceptances I have gotten. |
[Aug. 13th, 2005|11:04 pm] |
On the day of graduation I actually got an acceptance letter and scholarship. It was from Mount Ida and their scholarship was in the amount of: $13,600.
In late June/ early July I got accepted to Franklin Pierce, the same college as Stephanie. They are going to give me a success grant in the amount of $36,000 ($9,000 per year). They revised my award and my freshman year they are will give me $20,000 in finanical aid.
I am still waiting for Mount Ida to revise my award. I will make my decision then. |
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| I GRADUATED!!!!!!!!! |
[Aug. 13th, 2005|10:48 pm] |
Yes I know this is so late, so forgive. I will give major subjects there own headlines and trust there are a lot.
The day is June 8th. That morning we received our health records, dipolma and report cards. I was so excited and we also received sipper bottles, which had our school logo on it. I talked to my old music teacher Mrs Radner, she is the best. Then I had Kaitlin, Stephanie, Iamora, Roman and Lindsay sign my yearbook they are the best =0). So we went through the routine and people kept screwing it up. It took 15 minutes to march in. We did it like 3 times, it didn't seem right to me, but whatever. I waited in line for an hour for 7 tickets. I went back in line for another 15 minutes to get an extra ticket. I didn't get home til 11:15 am.
I found at 2 pm that my cousin wasn't coming and I was devasting. It would have been worth it if he had prior arrangements, but it was just because he didn't want to go. Same thing with my aunt and uncle. So I had no need for extra tickets and those 3 couldn't take 3 hours of their lives for the most important moment in my life.
So I got ready and at 5 pm, we left. My mother had printed out 26 wallets. I talked to victor and lindsay, julie, jason, kristin, mrs. blain, terissa, kaitlin, stephanie, tyshawn, charles, everyone lol. We were all just ready for this moment.
The moment came when my name was announced and I had a nice little pop. It seemed like everything happened so quick, yet as I write this my senior year flashes beyond my eyes. Not being in choir, being with Lindsay in history, working on the yearbook, winning Teacher's pet, being on the senior committee with Linday, talking with Allan and improving our English, the trouble with pre-calc, graduating with Victor and furthering our friendship. Going to the hospital to get 5 staples, losing the apprentice, making new friends and saying goodbye to all.
I am goign to miss so many people, it is great to graduate, but I don't want to say goodbye; at least not yet. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 26th, 2005|10:58 am] |
Alot has happened since christmas, but not as great as it should be. My grades have been on the decline as of late and it is because I have become lazy for some reason. I am trying to find my drive, but it doesn't seem to be there no matter how far I look. I will find it again.
I got accepted to STCC so I am very excited that I got my first acceptance letter. I am taking the SAT's on May 7th, so once that is done I am going to be getting more college acceptances I hope. I really want to get into Concord.
3 days ago I was in the emergency room. We were in gym playing soccer and I was dominating. There are these 2 brothers and they are just awesome at soccer and I was playing up to their level! The ball was comin in at an angle and I knew something bad was going to happen. I kicked the ball and then slipped. I slid into the guard rail. I got about 1-2 inch laceration on my head and was taken out of my gym class on a wheel chair. My friend got my bookbag and all that for me and went with me to the nurse's office. She cleaned up the blood off of my face and back of my head. About 15-20 minutes later my dad showed up. We went home and my mom drove me to the emergency room. We got there at 9:37 am and we left at 10:26 am, and I had 5 staples in my head. I was shocked at how much it took to close up one cut! Laura has been there for me as well as my other friends. I kind of showed the staples off on Thursday. Some of my teachers were shocked I was even in school the next day. I have perfect attendence and have had it for 4 years, I won't let anything keep me down. I had a case to present in law and even though I was in the emergency room, I still had my arguement. I came into school to present an arguement and wasn't able to due to the rest of my group not being ready. I had great points to work with and could have dominated the case. One of the people wrote the arguement and that is why we didn't present I guess, it better not effect my grade.
My school is doing their own version of the Apprentice. There was 5 people at first: Mumham, Andy, Tyrell, Calvin and myself. Mumham was fired for not showing up, but I think that it was a joke. Then she never showed up so he really fired her. Then it was 4 guys, and I knew one of us had to go. Andy was staying no matter what, he did more then the other 2. Tyrell just suggested something while Calvin had posters and wanted others to put them up, they never got hung up. One of the hunchmen asked why he didn't do make sure they got hung up? He said with my busy schedule, me being a senior class officer... I butted in and said Calvin I am on the same committe with you and have just as busy a schedule as you, yet I still found time to make a commerical, hang posters and talk to people. They are firing someone on Wednesday and I was already told I have nothing to worry about and that I am leading the pack. It is great to know where I stand right now.
Laura this post was just for you. =0) |
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| Time has flown |
[Jan. 1st, 2005|08:27 pm] |
Time has seemed to fly since November 14th. Alot has happened since then that time period. Me, Tyshawn and Lindsay are all friends once again. ME and Lindsay are on the path to friendship once more. Our friendship is stronger now then the blowout. We talk about alot of stuff again, it is good to see we are friends again. Me and tyshawn are tight, he is my boy. I have met a new firend, Josue. He is a cool dude, he is great to talk to.
We received our report cards on November 22nd. I got 3 A's, 2 B's and 2 C's. I was so proud of myself that I didn't get a D! We got progress reports and same kind of situation, I love the challenge. =0)
I missed the deadline for SAT's so it looks like I am taking the new SAT's. I want to get my applications in but my applications require SAT scores.
This has been an awkward vacation. I took the time to actually get what I needed to done. I submited 5 scholarship applications during this vacation. I was proud of myself. I also did research on 21 colleges. I discovered the college name, location, average GPA on the 4.0 scale, if SAT's are required and tution. If this was not enough, I did the same for my girlfriend, to a degree. I signed her up for an account, I filled out 3 applications for her. I have filled out 7 applications while she has only filled out 3. Last night I got home around 10:30 and I called her. I had called her at around 7:30 pm last night to see if she applied for any of the scholarships. She then told me no because her computer wasn't working. She gave me a bunch of garbage about how I gave her the wrong addresses and it was my fault that she didn't fill out anythign the night before. She then talked about how she went to a family member's house and spent the night so she didn't work on anything. I was like I have been busy suring my vacation, but I still made time to apply for scholarships. I made all my deadlines because I got up at 9 am and worked until 1 pm. At 1 pm until 3 pm I typed all my essays up. From 3 to 5 pm I filled out all my applications. I was proud of myself because I made all the deadlines. I was not going to let free money pass me by. So I called her and I asked her if she was positive that she didn't want to, I said no your goign to fill it out, while actually I would be, she would just read me her essays and I would type it in. So for an hour I typed in one application, it was long. So then one of the other deadlines had passed at 5 pm, one of them she didn't want to do. There was one that she wanted to do but didn't have an essay for. We made an outline and I had about a half hour to make an essay. The essay was about if you could have a friend for the rest of your life who would it be and why, she picked me. It was rather easy to talk about myself, no one knows me better then me. I made the deadline with 6 minutes to spare! After that, it was midnight and I watched the ball drop =0). After that I spent another 15 minutes filling out another scholarship application for her. At 12:30 am I finally went to bed. She called me at like 12 pm today and I was just yawning up a storm, I was so tired because I was just drained. I have broken down her colleges, gone through her scholarship list, filled out her applications, looked up her SAT scores, I did so much! I did it all and I feel a real sense of accomplishment.
Christmas made me feel so spoiled. I got my 2 magazine subscriptions, WWE Smackdown vs Raw, Kelly Clarkson- Brakaway, Diana Degarmo- Blue Skies, Collateral on DVD, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban on DVD, monkey pajama bottoms, me and my brother got Shrek on DVD, I got driving lessons, and me and my brother got a new flatscreen tv for our basement. On top of all this I got a fleece, MK: deception (it was my birthday and christmas gift), $20 for the mall and I am going to NEw HAmpshire for 1 week in the summer. My cousin wasn't there, but came down the next day. We discovered that he didn't buy his mom anything, he told her to come over and said she would receive her gift the after Christmas. He had told his mom that he wanted a memory card for his PS2, so she bought it for him. He tells her days before christmas not to buy it because he bought his own for $12 at a pawn shop. So he received the memory card and he was actually happy with it. My cousin had my father for secret santa and he bought my dad a sweater at the Family Dollar store, he did not spend anywhere near the $20 minimum. He bought his mom a $10 Eyore stuffed animal. I love my cousin, but he pulls the same stuff every year.
I will try to keep my journal as updated as possible. sorry if it was out of sequence, I thought of different things at different times so it is a little random. =0) Random isn't always bad. |
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| A shocked and depressed state of mind |
[Nov. 14th, 2004|07:48 am] |
My god, it has been a while since I have last writen. I have been so busy with school and college applications. I have 5 teacher recommendations so I can mix up the flavor in my applications. I want a college that has library science as a major. My choir teacher wrote me a beautiful letter of recommendation, I can't thank her enough for that. I also applied to my first college, STCC (Springfield Techincal Community College). It is not a bad college to start off at wither, my aunt went there. As our teacher told us it is not where you start, it is where you finish. Also the application fee was dropped because our counsler knows the administraion at STCC and they are allowing us to file for free. That saved me $10 right there.
On Friday I got my cap and gown measurements. According to the chart they brought I was 5'6", which means a grew 1" *does happy dance*. I weigh 150 pounds and my mom is going down my throat right now about my weight. She is saying how I need to watch what I eat because according to national survey or study the average for 5;6" was 130-140. She talked about how I am going to be fat and it isn't a pleasant place to be. That the 10 pounds now will turn into 15, then 20, then 25, then 30, etc. I don't care, I am fine the way I am, I am comfortable in my own skin and I will not change for anyone due to weight.
We had elections in my history class and I have lost 3 times so far, it is so disappointing, but more on that later.
I found out I have a C+ in math, I was only 1.4% off from a B-. I was in shock, it is reminding me off Algebra 2 Honors all over again. In Chemistry I am getting a D, that is a tough subject, the hardest one yet. In history honors seminar I am getting a A-, which will act as a A because it is honors. Those are the only solid grades I know right now. I hope I make honor roll this marking period.
My birthday went extermly well. Victor got me a card and $10, he is the man, he is my best friend. I also got cards from Krystal, Charles, Tiffanie, Kaitlian, Angel, Stephanie )My girlfriend and my aunt Shawn (it also contained a $25 gift card for wal-mart =0)). My aunt Linda bought my Mortal Kombat: Deception Kollecters edition for PS2, she rocks. That was also my christmas gift because it was $60. My cousin Jill bought me Kingdom Hearts, she also wants to play it too ;0). My mom and dad bought me MLB 2005 and Mortal Kombat: Annhilation. I got what I wanted and more.
Now on to something that has had a major effect on my week, I have never felt more sad then now. Last monday I had presented a paper on society, it was my views on how society is today. I left school crying on Monday due to the comments made. People are so harsh, but I guess they felt offended by what I said. I never meant to be controversial or hurt anybody's feelings, that is totally opposite of me. Tyshawn said I should have just given up half way through, someone said I am biased, someone shorten the paper and I said I will take your suggestion into consideration and everyone laughed. I don't get why do you laugh at manners and taking in construtive critism? Weird world. I read all the comments and wanted to cry, they were just flat out mean. The next day I didn't even want to meantion it to anyone, until someone else brought it up. My friend Victor was there for me, he is my best friend of all time. No one else was there for me in my time of need other then Victor. Tyshawn came up to me, but more on that later. Ia was there too, but she listened, which was nice because I always want someone just to listen. So me and Victor talked and he made me feel better for a little bit. In yearbook Vicky asked me about my presentation, she said she had heard that I had presnted the other day. I was liek, gosh word does travel fast in this school, lots of gossip. Then I got home and I found out Tyshawn had been talking behind my back. He was saying how I had made people angry yesterday and blah, blah, blah. So I mean word was getting out and all that. On Wednesday we had elections for President of Amnesity International. I had a speech ready and I got 2 votes, 1 was from myself, Dave got president, yet gave the simplest speech. Then in English, I was just down. I mean the way thos whole presentation turned out was just down right depressing. I mean people thought I was offensive, while I thought they were offensive. Tyshawn kept trying to get me to smile and told me I am still a good guy, I was kind of shocked. This was the guy who writes on my paper that I am foolish and inexperienced, that I lack knowledge and that I was trying to only convince myself of my own intellect. People always see me as a smiling, upbeat person, so maybe it caught him off guard to see me down. I don't know, whatever the case maybe he talked to me. We had no school on Thursday. On Friday I issued an offical apology to everyone in the class. Then I ran for secrtary and vice president and lost both. I only got 2 votes in total and they were both from me. It was depressing, but oh well that is life. |
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